Bipolar Disorder : Official diagnosis

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It's been 2 to 3 months since I last update my blog. I don't know if my blog has reader or something but I'm just gonna update myself for my future self. It's been an awful month, there's a lot of thing that happened and a lot more to come. 

I've diagnosis myself as someone who has a bipolar disorder since 2014 but I never really went to a doctor or psychiatrist to really have the official diagnose and everything, but my depression were getting more and more serious so I decided to visit the psychiatrist last thursday (7 May 2015) and, I can say fortunately because I was right about having bipolar disorder. I tried to remember the event and the episodes I'm having while growing up. Well, let just say, I've been having Bipolar Disorder since the age of 14.

Now, for those who didn't know what is BIPOLAR DISORDER.

BIPOLAR DISORDER is a mood disorder ranging from depressive lows to manic highs. For example, you can be happy for one second and be mad the next. This disorder effects our relationship with others, friends and maybe family who doesn't understand this illness. But, that's not the only symptoms of Bipolar Disorder. There are two episodes in Bipolar Disorder. One is mania or hypomanic, second is depression. 

Mania is the stage when you feel 

- the feeling on top of the world, can do anything, heck, you feel you can save the world, or be famous within minutes

- less need of sleep

- easily mad at something or someone or short long story you're having a mood swing

- can't concentrate on one thing at time, making grand and unrealistic plan or making a plan that is not finished

- doing things according to your heart

- spending money excess ability

Depression is the stage when you feel

- sad

- hopeless

- useless

- the absence of energy

- the excessive of the need to sleep

- trouble making decision

- Suicidal thought

- attempting suicide

- irritably (Displeasure)

If you have these symptoms, please go to the nearest clinic, ask for referee letter to psychiatrist and go to psychiatrist unit. Confirm you illness because it will help you a lot. People will just have adapt with your situation because remember, you didn't ask for this.

If your friends have these symptoms, support her, don't leave her alone, give your best to hear her stories.

Maybe we can discuss about the cause of this illness in the next entry.

ZeeFadziruddin